How did I get here?

It seems like it is obviously a bad thing if you have to stop blogging and create a new one with a new username and a new email address in order to prevent people you know from reading your blog.

I’ve been saying for a year and a half now that my life is a black hole. I have no idea what’s coming next. I thought I did. I planned as much as I could. I strategized and weighed options. I laid it all out neatly in lists of pros and cons. I worked my ass off, so how the fuck did I end up here?